someshitithinkabout:

in the beginning its all smiles, its cute, its fun, its enjoyable… it makes you feel good, you wake up in the morning smiling, you go to bed smiling. Every thought is a good one. But every beginning is the same… the same fun, the same cuteness, the same fun, the same joy… the same as the last beginning. It always begins the same. But as time progresses the beginning has begun and progressed to the end of the beginning… then what? things get old… you dont feel that same joy, that same fun, its not cute… So you miss that beginning stage, that same feeling you had before. So you move on and then you begin again. Always the same beginning but a different person. You just hope it doesnt end like the last beginning. I hate the beginning because im afraid of how its gonna end. Hopefully the beginning doesnt end… 

#Random Rambling

reblogging again.

(Source: lookatthetoon)

WARNING: Rant about Boyfriend

We’re so compatible. We haven’t had a single argument (knocks on wood). Even though we disagree on certain things, it’s settled right then and there. And we have no problem seeing which one of us is at fault when we are disagreeing. We make sure to NEVER go to anyone about OUR problems except EACH OTHER. I think what I love about us most is our equality. Everything is fair game with us. Our goal is to never get to the 10th level of anger, and if one of us gets there we just walk away until we’re able to handle it at a lower level. And we promised to never yell at one another. We don’t make decisions while we’re angry. We didn’t get in this relationship to change one another. He knows his faults, and I know mine…no need to harp on them, we don’t even mention them…we just know what we can do to change them.

We still have such a long way to go in this. But I’m excited to see where we’ll end up.

But I just don’t have the time for one. He’d have to settle for only seeing me on Saturdays, because Monday-Sunday I’m only focused on school, work, and how much sleep I’ll get during those days. I’m ready for commitment, but not if it’s gonna be a bump on my road to success.